Rebellion:)

Anyone who knows me knows that I have a little bit of a rebellious spirit. Not intentionally, in fact I try really hard to be good, but sometimes I just can't help myself.  I always want to be a "lady" and say the right things and do the right things but I think I just get board...and before I know it I've done something "off colored" again;) So below are some pictures of me sabotaging poor Amy. We were supposed to be at an activity for RS (church) in Branson for the night.  We made it to the hotel but we just couldn't "make" it to the meetings. Branson is so full of shopping and food, our inner bad girls came out. We did have great excuses overall for not attending our meetings. Like when we got to the hotel NO one was around and we just didn't know where to go. Also we were NOT told that we were to wear Sunday dress. AND on Sat morning there was NOT a DROP of hot water (which is a whole other story that I have major biff with). There was NO way we were taking freezing cold showers just to go to the meeting in t-shirt and jeans while everyone else was dressed up! AND not showering.....ewww....was not an option. So we  shopped, ate AND slept in! So for all of you who went and were uplifted by the meetings...just know that Amy and I enjoyed ourselves too:)

TICK TOCK

It's 1:30 AM. It's been awhile since I've stayed up this late.  I'm completely exhausted and feel so beat up from life that I can't sleep. The house is a disaster and today is Sunday. I hate having a messy home on Sundays. It puts me and everyone else in a terrible mood and then no one wants to go to church. I started to clean and then I found myself having thoughts of wishing I were a child again, wishing I could just go to bed and know that my mom would take care of everything, wishing I weren't the only one who cared about the physical and emotional state of our home...(ok actually Matt does care about that, however he stops caring after a certain time of night :). I feel like I keep running out of time. Time to spend with my kids, time to hold my husband, time to study and prepare for class, time to pray, time hang out with my girlfriends. I keep watching the clock begging for it to stop for a little bit. It mocks me and keeps on ticking...............Now that I've complained and had a pitty party for myself I guess I'll go clean. The only time we have is the time we use. Annoying. Ughhhhh

Matthew Lee...we call him Bubbie

Matthew and I share the same birthday! He was born on my 25th birthday and turned the big 4 this year! We had  so much fun celebrating him!

I also had fun celebrating this years birthday with great friends and good food! My girlfriends showered me with the most amazing gifts and I talked to every one of my best girlfriends on the phone that day, and that in and of itself was so much fun! I love you all!

No worries the tears in my eyes are because of Amy. She made me 3 journals made from the material of Amanda's prom dresses. It really caught me off guard and  it took me a little bit to contain myself. After a few minutes I was geeking it up again..

Groundhog Day!!!

So Mr. Groundhog saw his shadow and now we will have a dreaded 6 more weeks of winter? Whatever...I am so over it. I'm ready for the sunshine, picnic, park playing, throw the kids outside kind of weather! For real. We've had a stressful couple of months but we've been able to find some fun in that stress too...Thank goodness:)

Matt and Belle with the flu the week of Christmas

Matt's broken leg:(

Our good ol swimming pool from last summer has now been turned into an ice skating adventure!


                                                           

I couldn't stop laughing when all three of them came out of the play room dressed like little girls!

Polar Bear PJ's with Grandpa!

A girl with a gun...always a good sign.

Happy 2nd Birthday to Belle!!!

Here are few photos from the big party;) Actually I'm rather proud of myself...I didn't go too overboard on the whole thing. However, she is the third child. For Kenny's 2nd birthday we had a huge party and at Matthew's 2nd birthday we at least had balloons and streamers. I guess thats what happens when you come third in line. My fourth child will be lucky to get a cake at their 2nd birthday! haha (p.s. to answer your question....no I'm not):)

Every girl....

needs a day like I had yesterday!!! I literally shopped until I could shop no more! It was so much fun! I went all by myself, because afterall that is when I do my BEST shopping. I was gone for nine hours and hadn't a care in the world. I went to Branson and became a huge fan of TJ Maxx! I found some really great deals there. I couldn't believe how much I enjoyed this place. If you know me well, you know I HATE searching through clothes to find a bargain. I would so much rather pay full price and get on with my life than dig and dig and dig. However, it was totally enjoyable. Maybe because I didn't have three little monsters running up and down aisles or jumping up and down in the basket. I was just able to take it all in. It was wonderful. I then headed to the Landing. I love love this place. Being able to walk outside in the beautiful weather and go into any store my little heart desired was once again....fun! I had no time constraints, no cell phone and no feeling of any responsibility:) About 5pm I headed back home, but stopped for a pedicure, manicure and dinner. Pretty fingers, pretty toes and a full belly! I was ready to jump back into the game of LIFE after a day like that! It's no secret that I adore my husband, but yesterday is a perfect example of why. I obviously couldn't have gone without his willingness to be so selfless. He was genuinely excited for me to have some time all to myself....but then again....maybe his excitement was driven by the fact that he will be off on a hunting trip for several DAYS while I stay home and "selflessly" serve?!

I'm gonna miss them :(

Awhile ago I was able to have Kody and Alli for the day. I played with Alli's hair and painted her toes. She was such a sweetie. I gave Kody hugs throughout the day and he would say "Sunny, I love you". I can't believe how much Allison looks like her mommy. So beautiful. I'm certain that Kody inherited some of his clumsiness from Amanda:) He is such an amazing little boy.  They will soon be moving away. I'm not sure when we will see them again. I hope they will always know how much their mommy loved them. And if they ever forget I hope I am able to remind them. Even if it's through a birthday card or a Christmas package. Amanda had a fierce love for the two of them. Nothing could or would keep her away from them, even her leaving this mortal stage of life. I know she watches over them and I hope they will always always feel her near. I miss her too much for words. She was so much more than a bestfriend to me.  She was a part of my everyday. Even after she passed I still waited for the phone to ring, hoping she would be on the other end. Because I loved her so much I naturally love her babies. I feel like this is another ending...them leaving. Another good bye I never wanted to say. Life will never be the same.